therapist: you look really well!
family members: you look so much better!
doctor: you look really healthy!
me:
ed: hahahaahahahahahahahahahhaahahaha you're fat
Holy shit.
A few days of eating like a normal person
and I’ve gained weight.
What? Does my body want me to torture it? This really makes no sense.
And I don’t want this “it’s just water weight blah blah” crap because it isn’t. I can feel the fat on my body. It’s visible. This fat wasn’t here 4 days ago. I’m so done. So fucking done. What’s the point of eating normally if my body clearly doesn’t want me to recover?
God knows I’m throwing the scale away.
I was thisclose to posting a picture of my stomach but I hit cancel.
Why?
1) I’ll get hate
2) I’m not perfect let alone pleasant to look at
3) What if someone I know recognizes my nastyness?
4) I’m just gross in general
